Love Yourself from the Inside Out

This past week was a hard one for me I was bored and tired of the food. The only thing that kept me going was knowing that this food was making me feel better and healthier. Everyone around me has been sick and yet I haven't gotten sick once. My body is loving the healthier choices and eating REAL food...but my mind is telling me I'm bored. In the Discussions with Dash he touched on how the Mind is a terrible thing for the waist. There was so much information about the science behind food and what it does to our bodies. But more importantly what I took home from it was this powerful message: What are two things we HAVE to have in order to survive? Food & Love think about it, if you have a brand new precious baby you could give it all the nutrients in the world BUT if you did not HOLD and LOVE on that baby it would die. Humans need food to survive for nourishment but we also need love. Love and acceptance from those around us. Along the way I have found myself having thoughts about this specific topic. I have thought to myself if I could just feel like Quynn loved me for all of me regardless of how much I weigh then I could be me the way I am and eat whatever I wanted. I found myself resenting my husband. After the discussions with Dash and pondering on everything that was said last night I returned to Quynn and told him all of my thoughts. I have come to the realization I was resenting myself but blaming my husband. He DOES LOVE ME for all of me. He always has! I'm the one who doesn't Love me for me. I am the one who wasn't happy being the weight I was and feeling trapped and not knowing how to get out of me. I was lost in my own self, I was just trying to blame everyone and everything around me but wasn't taking my own accountability. I need to LOVE me! My goal is not about a number it's getting to the point where I can love me for all of me, weightloss is just a side effect. It's empowering and vulnerable to tell the world that. But this is MY journey!

The Seven Week Itch...it's a thang!

I have always heard of the dreaded seven year itch divorce rates are statistically high around this time in a marriage. For me and my past fad diets the seven week mark is usually about when I plateau and my weight becomes stagnant. So I bust my butt for another week ramping up my workouts doing double time just to watch the scale stay at a steady number. It's frustrating the devastation makes me question why am I even trying this hard? I usually slowly back down and walk away from yet another diet. Well I have hit my 7th week on the Dash program (remember I started early) and even though old habits are creeping into my mind, the thought of eating unhealthy and fattening foods seems appealing...I cannot give in! I won't give in! My mind is telling me it's time to divorce this program. But I won't! You know what keeps me going I steadily keep dropping weight and inches. I know numbers shouldn't matter because it should be about longevity and a healthier lifestyle and in the long run it is about that...but this week for me it's about the numbers it's about taking one day at a time and renewing my relationship with better foods. So those who can, eat a cookie for me and I will grab another salad with berries because I am on a date to fix my love for a healthier life! Cheers!

Breaking the Chains to my WHY!

In honor of Dash 's "What's Your Why Wednesday" I feel it appropriate to share my Why with you today.

Those two girls are what make me excited about life! But most importantly they have taught me to love myself. My daughters look up to me, they copy every bad or good action, habit, or quirk that I have and do. They have taught me that body image isn't even a word in their pure and innocent minds. The best part of my mornings are I can look my worst and my daughter will still grab my face to tell me I look so pretty. Body image is created by outside influences that can destroy a girls self worth. I want my girls to know that they have the power to be whoever they want to be. I want them to know that they can achieve the impossible and break the chains of letting society define what beautiful is to them. I am choosing to break the chains of who I am because hearing that "these are my genetics, we are just bigger women" is an excuse and that stops today! My Lifestyle change is more than a number on a scale it's about being who I want to be and finding my own SELF WORTH!